I’m still really struggling with my alcoholism. My week of detox back in October gave me about a month of sobriety and about 4 years worth of debt. I’m still not drinking as much or as frequently as I was before I went, but give it a few months of the way I’ve been going and I’ll get back to that. Which is kinda scary considering I was given less than a year to live if I continued at that pace. I’m not drinking a 5th of vodka a day taking 3 shots or so every hour, but I’m drinking about a third of a bottle a day taking a few shots maybe 3 times a day. Not as bad but still bad. It’s after 3 pm and I haven’t drank yet today, intentionally, and I don’t feel any physical withdrawals which is a good thing but I also feel extremely depressed. I hate life, it’s nothing but varying shades of grey.