All the store managers around me said they knew of me from other upper management types that sortof float from store to store and they said they would take me immediately if they had the position open but they can’t force somebody out to take me (Which I completely understand) but the moment one of them quits or gets in trouble I could come. So I could be stuck for a while. She texted me this morning and apologized for the things she said but didn’t really offer any explanation or any hope of continuing the friendship. She said she was going to put in her two weeks notice tomorrow and quit so that may give me a little relief until I can leave but everything in there will remind me if her and torment me.

I’ve been through so much with her I almost can’t even see myself going forward without her. I mean obviously it won’t physically kill me but I just can’t see me being me. I know that won’t last forever but the last time I went through something like this it was damn near the end of me and this is way worse than that.