I’m definitely missing some essential piece to the human puzzle. I see how people react to things and I am often bewildered by why people react so strongly to a lot of things. I have become very adept at feining these emotions but fuck if I feel these things say for a few instances (mostly things involving my mother and sister). Even something like true hapiness has eluded me since I was 9. I’m not really saying this as a point of pride for I am indifferent to my deficiency. Sometimes I feel dread and other times I feel numb towards it. But I’ve grown tired of feeling numb as well as the disconnect I feel.