I don’t have the resources to get better or the time to wait until I do. I’m in debt up to my earballs from the last time I tried to get help. When I went to detox the doctor said I was six months from death if I didn’t stop. I figure I bought some time with the few months I went without coupled with the fact that I’m not drinking as much now because my tolerance isn’t nearly what it was yet, but I don’t care enough to stop it before it is so I’m sure it will be eventually.