I’m sorry about Possessed is talking about. It really makes me sad just to read it.
Good news: Whatever they removed from grandfather is benign, thank God. He’s old, but hopefully he has years left in him.
Bad news: The lease expired and my parents had to borrow $700 from to make a down-payment on my dad’s new car. I’m trying to think of a non-asshole way to tell them they need to pay me back at some point. My dad lost his job. I understand it will be a while. It’s a hard time. We can barely make ends meet, and I’m doing what I can with my shitty job. My OCD spiked up again today. I’m trying the psychiatrist again on my next day off. I need to speak to the doctor because I’m worried about the side effects; Klonopin is making me sleep through my days off and I’m really concerned about the weight gain from the Abilify that I haven’t started it yet. Hopefully he won’t be pissed. Work is hell, as usual. The OCD really got worse today after a better patch. Fighting with my parents is so not what I need right now, but everything is so tense with the financial situation. The drugs have completely killed my libido, which is a whole separate thing. I’m worried about Possessed, I wish I had some good advice.
I know I’ve mentioned this probably somewhere here but, in case it helps, survival can be the toughest challenge there is. The fact that you are still here proves that you do have the ability to manage and pull through.
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