EDIT: STUPID POST
There are no stupid posts here. If you need to get it out, get it out, no-one in this thread will heckle or taunt you for it.
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I wasnāt worried about heckling ot taunting, I just didnāt like it after posting it. It was a stupid post regardless of the potential eventual reaction to it.
To make a slightly less stupid post about the same point, letās just say I often feel like I deserve a Mike PenceĀ® Approved Shock Attackā¢.
EDIT: Okay, post just as stupid, but now thinly veiled in fake-ironic-humor and also slightly topical and current.
You donāt ādeserveā anything but the right to be yourself (and for others to respect that).
Thereās nothing wrong with whatever feelings youāre having anyone who says otherwise should just go fuck themselves.
The thing is, I donāt want to be myself, or not the self I am right now. I want to feel normal and not like a dirty infidel. I have a hard time trying to reconcile my Christianity with my homosexual tendencies, and Iād be a much happier person if I could get rid of the latter. But I canāt AFAIK, no matter how much Iāve prayed about it in the last few years, so alasā¦
Okay, sorry for all the rambling. Iām in a bad mood tonight for several reasons, the others I wonāt get into because theyāre much longer stories.
I donāt know your personal battle with it because I am agnostic and a guy that is attracted to women. What I can say is this ā¦
Only you can define yourself. As far as I know, most the gay friends I have, keep God in their life. They do not separate it because both are a part of who they are. You have support here even though we may not know everyone personally. We will listen and we will try to help you keep your head above water if you need it. Donāt beat yourself up. Stay true to yourself.
And most importantly ā¦ Be safe SC.
Yep. Thereās certainly nothing wrong with you as far as Iām concerned, Coffee. Whether youāre straight and confused or bisexual or gay, thatās totally fine.
I myself am agnostic with heavy atheist leanings so I dunno if this will be helpful to you, but I hope that people within your church or religious convocation arenāt making you feel differently, because those things can coexist (if the religious part is important to you, at least). Maybe you can find a more accepting environment if the current one is more shame-based?
Either way, weāre all here at your side, and I (for one, and it sounds like Fo as well) accept you for exactly who you are. Keep in the fight, it gets better.