I keep trying to write a post for this thread, but it always ends up as a super harsh and vulgar attack on myself, and I don’t want to worry anyone, so I backspace it all. Silly me and my inability to lightly make fun of myself.
Or maybe I could just thinly veil the self-hatred with faux-irony like I do in real life in lame attempts at humor and/or probably cries for help.