I’ll start.
I just want to say, I hate some of you, with every breath I take. Now, I don’t actually hate you, but that is how I end up feeling about some of you. This has to be the worst section of any forum I’ve ever belonged to. Not because it’s off topic but because of how it’s been allowed to disintegrate in to such a shit hole of double standards based on the presence of only a handful of members that seem to have been allowed to run it.
I am a good person. I know most of the rest of you are too. I know I am very vocal, it is part of who I am, but it does not make me deserving of all the bullshit I do take from some. I have a daughter I love very much, one that respects and loves me in return. I don’t have much but what I do have is mine, I own it. It’s not rented or borrowed or donated to me. I also happily share what I own if and when it is needed. It’s the right thing to do. I have no reason to change this belief either. It’s an honorable way to be and nothing to be ashamed of.
My sensitivities are always in full view, it’s just how I am, and I have no problem defending them when I feel (because I have nothing else to go on) they’ve been vigorously disrespected. It does not make me friends all the time and I do not expect it to. I realize that not all of my fellow members are use to it or like it but it shouldn’t encourage them to treat me differently. I also fuck up. I make mistakes and sometimes they are huge. I welcome the opportunity to fix such issues when they come up. We all should have that opportunity. We all have problems but those problems don’t make us problems if we are openly seeking to fix them and help others do the same.
I am friends outside of here with some of our members. Some of them feel as I do about things here but they are not as vocal as I am. Others are happier not getting involved and that is okay. I also don’t always “get” internet-ese when it comes to someone being funny, sarcastic, nice, and what not. I am partly to blame due to never belonging to someplace like this until I came here. I am glad there are new rules for off topic but I do see some loophole spots that were probably purposeful based on how some like this section run and seen as compared to others that participate here.
In the end, I have become somewhat tainted by the way things work in off topic, and I do hate that part immensely. I am partly to blame for letting it get to me because my particular sensitivities can be a challenge. My life outside here has seen a lot of challenges, as most, as well. Being a veteran needing to make use of benefits I’ve been denied for years makes life a challenge as well. I really want to be happy inside and out. I know we can’t have it all. Please, try to understand me before you jump on a bandwagon just because it’s fun. It is not fun for me. Respect and understanding go both ways and we all should be willing to give that to each other because we all deserve it, not because we are entitled to it based solely on who we are here. I am human. I am a real person behind this nickname. We ALL are.
Thanks for listening.
If it means anything to you, I personally don’t understand why you get so much hate. Your a kind and respectful member who vocalizes his issues with the current state of the forum.
Apparently first my post in this thread was is being labeled as “baiting” and gave some members a loop-hole in the rules to harass me from another thread even though it is against the rules.
I have reinstated my own post so the record shows that I said it.
@darthrush … I do very much appreciate your kind words and support.
Thanks for helping and understanding. Please keep the positive vibe going because that is the most important part of this thread.