I want to drink so bad right now. It’s not physical symptoms anymore (although I think my blood pressure is still high) but there is some really corrupt and shady shit going on at my workplace. My best friend is being fucked out of her job. It’s becoming so corrupt I’m scared to go to work every day. I just want a cold beer and to cry my eyes out so bad. Honestly the only reason I don’t is because I think my friends will leave me if I don’t and I don’t want my last six months to be alone. (That’s the timeline the doctors gave me if I didn’t quit)