Wish I had words for you guys.
I’ve had a rough go of it myself these last couple months. Doesn’t look like it’ll be getting better anytime soon. I’m honestly in a very dark place right now. I’m usually very optimistic about everything but that’s taken a sharp 180. I would never think of suicide but it’s probably safe to say that I’m at least depressed. Hard to see right now how not everything fucking sucks.
It happens to everyone at some point (For some reason, or for no reason)… then years later you look back at that point and you can’t even work out how you got into that head-space. Trust me it’ll happen.
I know this is only the interwebz but you have friends here and over on fanedit.org who appreciate you.