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#1100514
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The Place to Go for Emotional Support
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No it doesn’t, like I said I don’t get shakes. Just nervousness. My heartbeat doesn’t get irregular either, because trust me I’d know if it did I have a weird paranoia about my heartbeat that causes me to check my pulse like once an hour. It’s actually the main source of my general anxiety is my heart, which is weird and infuriating because I don’t even have a heart problem, but ever since a few bad k2 trips back in the day I’m for some reason obsessed by fear.

And also I don’t usually have a very high amount of drinks in a day. Definitely less than what most people would consider a “party” if it were drank all at once.

I’ve always had anxiety.

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#1100509
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The Place to Go for Emotional Support
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moviefreakedmind said:

I knew that your situation was more complicated, but you should definitely try. You’re young, there’s hope for you.

In truth I don’t drink *that* much. It’s just the physical need that’s the problem. I’m not a binge drinker, at least not very often. I don’t get hammered very often like I used to, now it’s just that I need a couple drinks to calm my nerves. I take a shot in the morning to get moving, another shot or 2 at lunch time, and then 2 or 3 shots at night. (This is less than it used to be, I’m not saying I never party but getting actually drunk is more of a once a week thing). It’s almost like I use it as medicine for my nerves. In fact I would even venture to say my dependence on alcohol has more to do with anxiety than it does an actual physical addiction to the alcohol, as I’ve NEVER (even at my worst… And I know this is strange to say but it’s only my addiction that’s at it’s worst right now, my drinking isn’t all that crazy, it’s just that what little bit I need, well I NEED it) had tremors or shakes or even irritability when I don’t drink. I just start to get really nervous. My usual routine now is to have a drink or two, then smoke small amounts of pot. It seems to be working for the most part, but replacing the alcohol completely with pot would be even better but right now smoking without having a drink (and one or two generally does seem to be enough) within the last few hours of smoking gives me bad anxiety.

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#1100450
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The Great American Solar Eclipse, 2017
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DominicCobb said:

I slept in and missed it. Got the time wrong.

I slept in and missed it because I was partying until late last night and didn’t care. Top gun anyway?

I’m glad it’s over though so people will stop asking if Walmart has the glasses. Yes we had them. Yes we ran out. No, if we had more would everyone be having so much trouble finding them? Not that I was ever actually annoyed with people for asking I was just tired if the question

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#1100446
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The Place to Go for Emotional Support
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Can’t just quit. Could be deadly. Can’t afford to go through medical detox again. For a while anyway. I’ve tried to taper off but every time I start to make progress something happens in my life and I feel like my nerves are going to go crazy if I don’t resume normal drinking (which is something I would just deal with if I weren’t worried that intense nerves + alcohol withdrawal might bring my vitals to the edge of danger) so every time I make progress it goes down the toilet. I suppose I could just keep trying to taper, and even if it doesn’t work the reduced drinking for the limited time will at least give my body a little rest.

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#1100149
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The Kenobi Movie
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ray_afraid said:

Alderaan said:

Myself and a few other posters are persistent but not belligerent.

A total lie.

You think calling a mod an asshole is belligerent? Wow that’s crazy.

Posting OMG DISNEY STAR WARS every time somebody says something positive about the sequels is also perfectly cool don’t you know.

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#1100047
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The Place to Go for Emotional Support
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Stop drinking and stick with the pot. Take it from somebody that can’t even make it to work without at least a couple shots of gin or vodka to calm the nerves.

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#1099997
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The Place to Go for Emotional Support
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ChainsawAsh said:

Possessed said:

Guess it’s a good thing the tock is clicking on my alcoholic liver lol.

Might I suggest bourbon and ginger ale? It’s a recent favorite of mine. Just poured my third of the night.

Well, I wasn’t joking though my alcoholism is actually really severe, however I do like gin and ginger ale. I usually just drink straight vodka though

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#1099918
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The Place to Go for Emotional Support
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My girlfriend of several months , with whom things were getting serious and I felt very strongly for, called me a few days ago and said she thinks we should just be friends. Obviously I told her that was ludicrous and that if she wanted to dump me then we obviously weren’t going to be friends and that she would just have to deal with me not being very happy about it, and that we weren’t going to be friends. (To be honest though that’s a million times more friendly than the way I said it… Honestly after four fucking months of being pretty serious and being together every day how can you just say you want it to be friends and expect that to just be okay like no big deal)

Today I found it it was because she wanted to be with somebody else and couldn’t be honest with me about it.

So much for the good mood I’ve been in lately! Guess it’s a good thing the tock is clicking on my alcoholic liver lol.

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#1099750
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Video Game Thread
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That’s almost an immediate deal breaker for me… Man that’s a bummer. I play Zelda games almost entirely for the atmosphere and music is a big part of that.

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#1099696
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Video Game Thread
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What’s wrong with the music? I haven’t played or watched clips yet

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#1099328
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Random Thoughts
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Actually I think it’s title may be too NSFW to even say in Off Topic.

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#1099314
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Random Thoughts
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It’s not as fun as the thread me and you have to talk about ender.

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#1099262
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Random Thoughts
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DominicCobb said:

You really trying to tell me you don’t have a crush on Weird Hood Man With Cosmos Face? Because I’m not buying it.

Well… It is a nice hood…

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