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Mike O

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#1109315
Topic
The Place to Go for Emotional Support
Time

darth_ender said:

Mike O said:

So, I have some mild good news. I bought a pill splitter and started cutting my Abilify and Klonopin in half and taking them with my Prozac. This has been somewhat helpful. I’m far, far from 100%, and still don’t feel like I’ll ever be back to where I need to be. My crisis of faith is far from solved, and probably never will be. I still feel sort of permanently broken in many ways. But I do feel more functionally so. There been a reduction in the anxiety and obsessiveness from the medication. Sometimes. Somewhat. This is tentative, at best. I don’t know how long it’ll last. I have been able to do some thing I enjoyed again, if not with the same level of passion. I still feel somewhat numb, dulled to what used to make me happy. But my parents live with me, and they and my friends seem to feel that I’m doing a little better. It’s a small victory, possibly a temporary one, and there’s still a long way to go. I had another slip-up today, and with each of those, I fear backsliding more and more. I get cocky every now and then, and wow, do I pay.

I’m still tired of fighting and hurting. My anxiety, obsessiveness, and depression are particularly bad at work. Now, while we’re in the middle of a major remodel that’s really upsetting customers and making some aspects of my job a lot more difficult, it’s worth noting that in some way, things have improved. Again, it could be temporary, but new management do seem to have been running things better, so I wish I knew why I felt MORE stressed.

Now, to the very bad news. My 83 year-old grandfather is not in good shape. He’s hurt himself a couple of times getting up and wandering around the house at night. Bluntly, he needs assisted living, and he and my family are being stubborn about it. I don’t know what the hell do, but I’m worried that he’s going to hurt himself more seriously one of theee days. I live in fear of losing him every day. I don’t know what we’re going to do, but we’d better come to some decisions. I’m very scared, and don’t know what to do or what will happen. This is the kind of thing I should be worried about more than my selfish, stupid bullshit.

The medicine has me sleeping more, but it’s also putting me to bed at more reasonable hours. I secretly like sleeping more than I think that I should, because it’s my best respite from my mind and my problems.

Sorry for the rambling. Just wanted to vent a little. Progress is a dangerous mistress. For all I’ve accomplished, I feel like there’s still so much further to go. And that’s not counting my REAL problems; being a 30 year-old virgin living with my parents working a dead-end job. I need to work on THAT too, and I’m desperately running from it.

I am glad the medication is working and that the dosing is better since you’ve been cutting your pills. However, I recommend you never make any changes without consulting your doctor, even by phone. He will probably tell you that what you’ve done is okay, but it’s always best to consult, especially since it affects his ability to track your progress.

Actually. It was my psychiatrist’s idea to do it in the first place, so he definitely knows.

As for your grandfather, it truly is a challenge to see people deteriorate. People do die, and this is an unfortunate part of this mortal life. What worries me is the ability for your family to care for him as he goes through this. Assisted living would probably be best, and hopefully, you can help convince them of the safest course of action. Just give it time.

If God is good, I’ll get another few years with him, I think losing him in the near future would break me permanently. Hopefully our family will either accept the necessity for assisted living, or find some solution, it’s just a constant source of worry. I had nothing else to do on my days off this week, I should’ve gone to see him.

What concerns me most about you is how self-critical you are. You have difficulties, and then you criticize yourself for having difficulties. It’s literally in every post in this thread. It’s okay to struggle. Everyone has difficulties. You can’t beat yourself up for being human. Just learn from your difficulties. If you feel you’re being too selfish, try devoting more time to serving others. One of the best cures for depression is turning outward and devoting your attention to others. Maybe, you will find even just a little of the peace you seek.

Well, God knows, I burned some bridges by blaming others. Maybe it’s time I accept a little more responsibility for my own problems. In any case, I’m going to ask my psychiatrist about seeing a psychologist, and maybe I’ll LISTEN this time. But yeah, some inner peace would sure be nice. You’re right that I have a tendency to be hard on myself, but I guess it’s the balance of that and accepting some damn responsibility for myself. So I guess it’s 50-50.

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#1108862
Topic
Legality, fan-edits, and more. Legality, fan-edits, and repercussions
Time

CatBus said:

Some chipsets fail to upconvert 720p24 properly. My Oppo BDP-93 (Marvell Qdeo 88DE2750 chipset) used to upconvert to 1080p24, but then there was a firmware update to fix a colorspace bug and 720p24 now goes to 1080p60 just like yours. I’m afraid in my case the fix is a new player, since it’s long out of support. What’s more annoying to me is that the 480i NTSC decoding went to crap at the same time too, in a much worse way. So it’s very possible the hardware itself is at fault, but I don’t know your model specifically. If only HDMI supported 720p24, then you could just pass it as-is and let the display handle the upconversion. Argh.

I’m not sure about that. There’s some sort of setting that runs SD DVDs at 24p, but I’m not sure it works. I know my HDMI can handle all the up to 1080/24, since that’s what all of my Blu-rays run. If it can do that, I assume that it can do 720/24p. It seems to do the scaling automatically. Maybe it’s my TV? Even when I plug in my old game consoles, even composite scales up to 1080/60p (or at least it says so).

Possessed said:

It’s only morally stealing if you don’t own the Blu rays. I don’t think God would consider it a sin to watch an alternate (unfortunately) version of a movie you have legally purchased and paid the price for. (Not making fun)

I technically don’t own the Blu-rays just the VHS tapes. I used to have the old trilogy set on DVD, but sold it. But yeah, I get what you’re saying, I just hope Uncle Sam would see it that way if the copyright police ever showed up 😉. But listen, I’m the guy who feels bad for loading audiobooks on CD I get from the library into iTunes even though I always delete them immediately after I’m done with them. Maybe it’s a complex 😉.

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#1108372
Topic
The Place to Go for Emotional Support
Time

So, I have some mild good news. I bought a pill splitter and started cutting my Abilify and Klonopin in half and taking them with my Prozac. This has been somewhat helpful. I’m far, far from 100%, and still don’t feel like I’ll ever be back to where I need to be. My crisis of faith is far from solved, and probably never will be. I still feel sort of permanently broken in many ways. But I do feel more functionally so. There been a reduction in the anxiety and obsessiveness from the medication. Sometimes. Somewhat. This is tentative, at best. I don’t know how long it’ll last. I have been able to do some thing I enjoyed again, if not with the same level of passion. I still feel somewhat numb, dulled to what used to make me happy. But my parents live with me, and they and my friends seem to feel that I’m doing a little better. It’s a small victory, possibly a temporary one, and there’s still a long way to go. I had another slip-up today, and with each of those, I fear backsliding more and more. I get cocky every now and then, and wow, do I pay.

I’m still tired of fighting and hurting. My anxiety, obsessiveness, and depression are particularly bad at work. Now, while we’re in the middle of a major remodel that’s really upsetting customers and making some aspects of my job a lot more difficult, it’s worth noting that in some way, things have improved. Again, it could be temporary, but new management do seem to have been running things better, so I wish I knew why I felt MORE stressed.

Now, to the very bad news. My 83 year-old grandfather is not in good shape. He’s hurt himself a couple of times getting up and wandering around the house at night. Bluntly, he needs assisted living, and he and my family are being stubborn about it. I don’t know what the hell do, but I’m worried that he’s going to hurt himself more seriously one of theee days. I live in fear of losing him every day. I don’t know what we’re going to do, but we’d better come to some decisions. I’m very scared, and don’t know what to do or what will happen. This is the kind of thing I should be worried about more than my selfish, stupid bullshit.

The medicine has me sleeping more, but it’s also putting me to bed at more reasonable hours. I secretly like sleeping more than I think that I should, because it’s my best respite from my mind and my problems.

Sorry for the rambling. Just wanted to vent a little. Progress is a dangerous mistress. For all I’ve accomplished, I feel like there’s still so much further to go. And that’s not counting my REAL problems; being a 30 year-old virgin living with my parents working a dead-end job. I need to work on THAT too, and I’m desperately running from it.

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#1108359
Topic
Legality, fan-edits, and more. Legality, fan-edits, and repercussions
Time

Possessed said:

I’ll go ahead and list the members here who’ve been arrested for downloading a fan edit:

I don’t know, maybe it’s my latent Catholic guilt complex. I do just always worry about some kind of repercussions, not to mention that I’m essentially stealing.

dahmage said:

https://hdguru.com/how-to-properly-configure-a-blu-ray-player/

http://hometheaterreview.com/five-tips-to-successfully-set-up-your-blu-ray-player/

I have a Sony BDP S3100 if that’s any help.

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#1106917
Topic
4K restoration on Star Wars
Time

I just hate all the damn speculating. I wish Disney would give some kind of damn statement. But of course they don’t want to give any misinformation, so they probably just want to keep mum. 2020 seems so far away 😦.

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#1106912
Topic
Legality, fan-edits, and more. Legality, fan-edits, and repercussions
Time

Man, I just can’t get over what Harmy managed to accomplish. The visuals are so stunning, though I do wish I could get the 24p to run. My player keeps upscaling it to 180/60p. The audio is only lossy 2.0 DD though. Whoever did this bootleg did pretty amazing work, they even stomped the discs. Seeing what Harmy accomplished, as I mentioned, made me feel worse than ever about contributing to any kind of threat to him, sadly 😦. But man oh man, does it look stunning. Thanks to everyone who’s been forgiving, and again, sincerest apologies. If it’s any consolation, which it’s not, this does make me look into other fan edits. Now if only I could find the audio preservation of the mono for Terminator 1, the rough cut of Apocalypse Now, and the theatrical cut of THX 1138. I’m kind of curious about that Ulysses Cut of Waterworld too. If nothing else, this has opened my eyes to the amazing things that home editing can accomplish. But I still hope I don’t get arrested 😉. And I still duly apologize.

Post
#1106910
Topic
All Things Star Trek
Time

pittrek said:

Mike O said:

doubleofive said:

They would have done it for one of the 4 releases they brought out this year.

I’m surprised that DS9 isn’t getting remastered given that apparently TNG sold well. I kind of hope that the DC remaster of II is testing the waters to see if we can get remasteres of the others (particularly the DCs of I and VI), but we’ll see. Paramount just don’t seem interested.

Multiple sources actually claim that the TNG blu-rays barely broke even.

Ah. Well, that explains it.

Got to see Wrath of Khan on the big screen last night thanks to Fathom Events. Great experience. It holds up so well, Meyer’s witting script and slick direction have really stood the test of time.

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#1105596
Topic
4K restoration on Star Wars
Time

Fang Zei said:

DrDre said:

nickyd47 said:

DrDre said:

Fang Zei said:

So does anyone honestly still think that when the time eventually comes to release the OT on 4k* that Disney won’t include a restored OOT?

I mean, to the layman, do the 2011 blu-rays look that terrible when upscaled on a properly setup and calibrated 4k display? People are going to need a reason to buy these movies yet again other than higher (but not necessarily perceptible) resolution and hdr.

Maybe I’m way underestimating the demand for a 4k hdr SE, but I feel like a lot of fans are worn out from all these changes and would prefer to simply watch these films as they were.

*probably no sooner than 2020 so that Disney can keep the profits from Empire and Jedi all to themselves.

The general population doesn’t care about the changes. A great number of them have never seen anything but the SE. They don’t even know what they’re missing, and their numbers are growing every day.

All Disney would have to do is market the theatrical cuts as all new never before released cuts and those people will have their minds blown

I’m sure many would, but the problem is that releasing the OOT would have to be a labour of love, like Mike Verta has done. Someone within the Lucasfilm/Disney conglomerate with influence needs to champion these classic films, otherwise I don’t see it happening. There’s really not much of a financial incentive to do it. I’m sure a 4K release including the OOT would do somewhat better than one without it, but how much better are we talking about, 10%? That’s nothing compared to the amount of money to be made with the release of the new films each year.

Well, yeah.

Disney needs to want to do this. Not because they’ll make more money off of it, but because it’s the right thing to do.

That simply won’t happen. The only reason they’d do this if there was some sort of financial gain for them. I think it’s time we face facts: Disney aren’t interested in making a deal with Fox. If we’re lucky, the absolute earliest we’re getting them is 2020, and that’s a long way out.

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#1105589
Topic
James Cameron on revising a scene in T2:3D that "just bugged" him
Time

xhonzi said:

https://www.amazon.com/Terminator-Judgement-Ultra-Blu-ray-Digital/dp/B074486NBN/ref=sr_1_4?ie=UTF8&qid=1503590130&sr=8-4
https://www.amazon.co.uk/Terminator-2-Blu-ray-3D/dp/B073XNQQFM/ref=sr_1_1?s=dvd&ie=UTF8&qid=1503590182&sr=1-1

Unfortunately, to get the Blu-ray, I have to buy the 4K version, even if I don’t have a 4K player. And of course, I’m still waiting on T1 with the fucking mono track.

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#1103972
Topic
Legality, fan-edits, and more. Legality, fan-edits, and repercussions
Time

If it’s any consolation to anyone, I only got 2.0 lossy DD audio, and my player weirdly scales the 720/24p up to 1080/60p and I can’t figure out how to fix that. I’m pretty amazed at what Harmy has accomplished, which makes me all the more ashamed.

darth_ender said:

Mike O said:

I am appropriately ashamed. I saw an unboxing video on eBay and just kind of went off assumption from there. I should’ve known better. It just seemed the quickest way. Apologies.

It’s no consolation, but I will never do it again. I was ignorant, and went with what seemed the quickest option. I see now the error of my ways, and had I spent more time on the forums in the proper places, I’d have known better.

Probably no consolation at this point, but I’ll be sure to never again pay for a fan edit. Again, apologies.

Lesson learned, eh Mike? It’s really okay. The world won’t implode and I’m sure your actions will not call down the wrath of the god-mouse. Just ask for a little more help in the future and I’m sure someone will help you. Life goes on and we still want you around! 😃

I will ask for help in the future, and will also educate myself on some of the finer points of this stuff. I purchased a Blu-ray burner specifically for this purpose, but it’s a bit like a supercomputer in the hands of someone who doesn’t know how to operate a calculator; I’m more than a little out of my depth, which is why I made this foolish decision.

Valheru_84 said:

Mike O,

Having purchased one of these custom DSE box sets from eBay, do you (or anyone else) know if it gives you any additional options or leverage via eBay to report this as pirated material and get the profiteering piece of shit in proper trouble?

Or does everyone think this would end up putting the spotlight back on us with the material in question being a fan edit that originated from a member here?

.Val

That’s a good question. I could certainly point out where I purchased it and let Harmy know. It’s the least I can do for penance. A friend of mine, entirely on his own initiative and without any encouragement from me, also notified me that he purchased them from another eBay seller. I just don’t know if there’s any way of reporting them without getting the community into more trouble, assuming I haven’t already.

Possessed said:

I understand the anxiety over downloading these things, but I don’t understand how having it in your eBay purchase history is any better…

It’s not. I just wasn’t thinking rationally.

darth_ender said:

TV’s Frink said:

Anxious people don’t always act rationally. Or even logically.

^This.

Heck, everyone thinks irrationally at times. Like right now, do you honestly think he had any other motive for buying in eBay? Does anyone think he is trying to bring in a lawsuit or get this site shut down? Obviously, it seemed easier and safer (whether true or not) than a trackable torrent. Mike’s a decent guy and I hate to see him getting ripped over what was obviously a mistake.

Thanks, man. That’s kind of you. If it’s any consolation to anyone here, I do feel appropriately ashamed, and have thoroughly learned my lesson and will make sure never to pay for a fan-edit ever again.

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#1102444
Topic
Legality, fan-edits, and more. Legality, fan-edits, and repercussions
Time

I am appropriately ashamed. I saw an unboxing video on eBay and just kind of went off assumption from there. I should’ve known better. It just seemed the quickest way. Apologies.

It’s no consolation, but I will never do it again. I was ignorant, and went with what seemed the quickest option. I see now the error of my ways, and had I spent more time on the forums in the proper places, I’d have known better.

Probably no consolation at this point, but I’ll be sure to never again pay for a fan edit. Again, apologies.

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#1102397
Topic
Legality, fan-edits, and more. Legality, fan-edits, and repercussions
Time

I just paid an amount of money I’d rather not disclose for the Despecialized Edition on eBay. This version, to my credit, came with pressed discs including menus and packaging things I don’t know if I could make myself. It also comes with From Star Wars to Jedi. Now if only I could find someone trying to hock the Apocalypse Now workprint.

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#1095307
Topic
The Place to Go for Emotional Support
Time

It went great! But it was in a church, and with all that has been happening to me lately, that was very stressful. Luckily, I hid it from my parents. Luckily, I was able to appear normal and not ruin anything for anybody. So that was good, at least.

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