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Leonardo

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#1200519
Topic
The Place to Go for Emotional Support
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Possessed said:

Have you tried getting a job that isn’t your dream job but it’s still a job? I mean shit the cashiers at Walmart start at 11 bucks an hour these days and their only real qualification is a clean record, anything is better than nothing and Walmart has a way of becoming your family.

well, I don’t have a dream job to begin with. I’ve tried my area of expertise, so to speak, which I’ve inherited in a way from my father. I’m good at it, but it’s not what I want to do with my life. I knew I was getting into it just because I was absolutely desperate and needed something to do, and I saw first hand how much of an unfulfilling, lousy, tiring, unappreciated job it is. I could’ve tolerated it for a while if it wasn’t for the fact that, at best, I earned 50 bucks a week. People were taking advantage of me in different ways, and it got messy and ugly and then the money went bye bye, with the only option remaining being mobile top ups. Which if you knew how much time and work I invested in that lousy operation, you’d realize how insulting that felt. I understand, no more sponsors. So long then.

It isn’t so much finding another job now, as it is getting out of the house. I only go out every once in a while, I walk a few blocks, get groceries, and back home.

The thought of any sort of responsibilities, honestly, makes my brain crash and reset. File not found.

Cashier? I’d be lousy at it, and I’m not exhaggerating. Besides there’s no Walmart where I’m from.

I’ve been trying to find satisfaction and fulfillment any way I can. Cooking, so far, has been the only sparkle in a black void.
You see, whenever I do anything I think I’m crap at it, even if people tell me I’m good. My brain will always tell me that everything I do is terrible.
But when I cook, I can taste what I’ve cooked and hey, it isn’t half bad! So if other people tell me the cake I’ve made is very good, and I taste it and it tastes very good, then it would logically follow that I’ve made something good for once!

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#1200482
Topic
The Place to Go for Emotional Support
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Hello Trident, it’s been a while hasn’t it?

Well, I’ve been suffering with depression for quite a few years now (seven I think), and been seeing a doctor for it, close to two years more or less. Time has become such an elusive concept for me…

I’ve recently turned 30 and have no dream, no purpose, nothing. I still have to figure out who the heck I am, with all that entails.

The only job I had managed to hold for a little while was almost a complete waste of my time because, as feared, no contract, and what little money I did get soon became too small a sum for me to have it worth my while. And I mean it, last offer was like 20 bucks a week in cellphone top ups only (!!), almost full time. I said so long pal.
It was good while it lasted. It did teach me a few things. But it wasn’t for long, as there was little to no money in it, and certainly no personal satisfaction.

I always think I’m letting my friends down. I am. I don’t deserve my friends.

Lately I have been staying up awfully late which has had the consequence of making it even more difficult for me to get out of bed in the morning, as if I didn’t feel like I wanted to die already.

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#1198290
Topic
Random Thoughts
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suspiciouscoffee said:

But you gained a Me, so that… actually, that just makes things worse.

EDIT: my math sucks, you disappeared after I had already been here a few months.

math is not my strong suit either, don’t worry about it

LordZerome1080 said:

Nice to meet you Lenorado, I’m the resident weirdo. Stay phrosty.

Resident weirdo? I’ll be the judge of that! Nanu nanu!

Handman said:

LEO, not sure if you remember me at all, but I remember you. And it’s always great to have old posters back.

Hello Handman, I do remember you. Thank you, it’s great to be back

DuracellEnergizer said:

Happy to see Leonardo broke free of the Phantom Zone.

oh boy, do I have stories about the Phantom Zone. In fact that’s where I’m posting from!

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#1198267
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Random Thoughts
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Collipso said:

Leonardo said:

SilverWook said:

Leonardo said:

Hello there! What did I miss?
obiwan

Hi Leo! You picked a fine time to pop in. 😉

Hi Silverwook! haven’t had time to read a lot of posts but I do smell a bit of cordite even in this very thread, am I wrong?

not at all… we lost both warbler and _ender the past few months and tensions are rising with chyron

well, fudge

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#938817
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Random Thoughts
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Trident said:

Leonardo said:

Wasn’t there a thread for people that randomly disappear and then come back for a while?
Anyway hello folks, I disappeared and came back! Popped in to say hi, what did I miss?

Hey buddy! Welcome back to the land of trolls and stuff. 😉

We’ve been having a love-fest in the politics thread. And I had a bit of a near-meltdown experience in the Emotional Support thread. But other than that nothing new. And maybe even with those things nothing’s new hey?

How’s it going with you? Any tales from your travels in the great beyond?

I’m constantly busy with a job that so far has no reward, monetary or otherwise. Mostly because even if I am doing fine the rest of the time, I tend to get stuck on my mistakes, my brain won’t move on quick enough from them.
I feel like every day of the week is running slightly ahead of me and I can’t catch up. Sometimes I just wanna stop.

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#920610
Topic
Preserving the "Italian" Original Trilogy (Released)
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The first one you mentioned says:
“Troppo tardi. Dovevi pagarlo quando ne hai avuta l’occasione.”
the other one, yes, it’s “Puoi dirlo a Jabba.”

As for the tractor beam controls, we’re not sure. The print that thxita saw was a hybrid. 1977 original up to the escape from Mos Eisley, from there on it was the 1997 SE, and that didn’t have a localized shot. That’s what we know.
A possible translation, in keeping with the lingo used earlier in the movie, is “ENERGIA - RADIOFARO”.
As for Jedi, yes we have Jabba subs.

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#918440
Topic
Preserving the "Italian" Original Trilogy (Released)
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If I understand correctly you wanna use the custom font I made for this version, to make “print-accurate” forced subtitles? If that’s it I’m totally ok with it, I’d give credit to Laserschwert too, he was of great help in figuring this font thing out.

Oh btw hi guys! I haven’t signed in in a while so I’m out of the loop, haven’t kept up with this whole forum lately, I’ve been completely occupied with a job IRL.