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Ady, how was someone in my position supposed to react? I had been banned and blocked and couldn't find a way to contact you. I felt backed in a corner and persecuted.  I'm by no means saying it was right, but it was how I felt. 

You didn't understand me, and I obviously didn't understand you. Now I do, and I am terribly sorry for every inch of my part in this. What transpired between you and me hurt more than anything else in the whole mess. It really hurt that you (I thought) could attack me. I didn't understand what you were getting at man, and I just took it the wrong way. You have no idea how sorry I am about that.

At the time, yes, I thought everyone listed on that post should be ashamed of themselves. I will gladly create yet another forum account and change/add/correct to reflect that it was a misunderstanding between you and I and you were not at fault. You are a great guy and I hope you can see forgiveness, Ady.

For what it's worth, Happy Thanksgiving and best wishes to you and your fam, especially Dad.

And an additional note so things are clear, adywan should NOT have been in the "ashamed" list due to MY error and fucking everything up as usual.

My replies:

Are you dumb or just plain stupid? 

Yes and yes.

Calling people two faced just because they didn't want to help you is pathetic. 

Yes it is and my apologies to doubleofive and Warbler.  I was more accustomed to these fine gents acting one way, and when they didn't, it shocked and hurt me because I was vulnerable at the time.  Of course the fellas have a right to act and conduct themselves however they please.

Feelings were hurt and I lashed out.  It's a terrible feeling for someone in my situation, but it happened.  I am not proud of it, I felt betrayed, hurt, angry, etc., but I said it.  I said folks should be ashamed and now I regret it.

Hey, it's just a forum and nobody really KNOWS anyone, right?

What a Thanksgiving.  I am truly sorry to everyone.  I brought this shitstorm on myself, probably out of some deep rooted insecurity or defect or some shit.

For the record, I will not be contacting anyone again about trying to get back in, from Jay on down.  I have said my piece.  I won't be making anymore waves until February or March.  If anyone wants to talk about ANYTHING, not just my ban or whatever, please contact me at jeditray at hotmail dot com.

MTFBWY and Happy Thanksgiving.