Possessed said:
I also have an addiction to eating food and electricity. I. Can't. Go. Yet.
My cousin used to say that and when he made up excuses no moment was the perfect moment, believe me that there won't be a perfect moment and all the moments are going to feel the bad moment so which is going to be the perfect moment? Next suicide attempt? next drunk/high session at work? next miserable day? You have to understand that if you don't seek help while having options then that makes you a little bit guilty of where you are now because you don't want to try a different way.
Anyway, I already said what I wanted to say and please don't take it the wrong way because I sincerely hope you get better, just don't forget that the ball in in your court and probably things won't change until you you are ready to make tough decisions and seek help.
May the force be with you.