Good luck, Ash.
Thanks.
Today I thought to myself, if my life hasn’t improved in a year, I’ll probably just off myself finally. Life has been pretty empty.
I hope you either forget about this by then or find something to make life worthwhile for you.
Been having a dramatic increase in anxiety and insomnia for the past few days that doesn’t seem to have a source or want to respond much to attempts at mitigation. Very much at a loss as to what to do about it. Might look into going back to my therapist if it doesn’t improve by the end of the week.
Forgive me for being silly, just this once, but you do still smoke weed yes? Might you have gotten hold of a strain that doesn’t agree with you? It’s happened to me before. If you find yourself to wound up and anxious and unable to relax maybe you need something more indica dominant? I’m a regular user and I’ve found heavy sativas make me feel exactly how you just described.
Actually, I haven’t had weed of my own in over a month, and have only very infrequently smoked during that time. I’m actually trying to get a hold of some for after work tonight in the hopes that it’ll help.
If that’s the case, you should listen to Possessed. Indica would be much better than sativa in your case imo too, but I’m sure you already know it.
Don’t listen to him. Listening to me is always a dangerous game and deep down you know it.
Good luck man.
Seeing as how I’m currently smoking a Camel Filter, I think we both know exactly how much I listen to you. 😉
Seriously though, I don’t live in a legal state and don’t have a direct connection to anyone up in Michigan for medical stuff, so I couldn’t tell you if what I end up getting is an indica or a sativa. But it looks like I’m gonna be able to get some after work now, so hopefully it helps, regardless of the strain.
I ask because I did once attempt to find a psychiatrist because I was pressured into it but he was fucking with me and playing mind games so I stopped trying to schedule an appointment. It seems to me like finding a counselor is like trying to get into Fight Club or something.
The Person in Question
Been having a dramatic increase in anxiety and insomnia for the past few days that doesn’t seem to have a source or want to respond much to attempts at mitigation. Very much at a loss as to what to do about it. Might look into going back to my therapist if it doesn’t improve by the end of the week.
Forgive me for being silly, just this once, but you do still smoke weed yes? Might you have gotten hold of a strain that doesn’t agree with you? It’s happened to me before. If you find yourself to wound up and anxious and unable to relax maybe you need something more indica dominant? I’m a regular user and I’ve found heavy sativas make me feel exactly how you just described.
Actually, I haven’t had weed of my own in over a month, and have only very infrequently smoked during that time. I’m actually trying to get a hold of some for after work tonight in the hopes that it’ll help.
If that’s the case, you should listen to Possessed. Indica would be much better than sativa in your case imo too, but I’m sure you already know it.
Don’t listen to him. Listening to me is always a dangerous game and deep down you know it.
Good luck man.
Seeing as how I’m currently smoking a Camel Filter, I think we both know exactly how much I listen to you. 😉
Seriously though, I don’t live in a legal state and don’t have a direct connection to anyone up in Michigan for medical stuff, so I couldn’t tell you if what I end up getting is an indica or a sativa. But it looks like I’m gonna be able to get some after work now, so hopefully it helps, regardless of the strain.
I don’t either sadly my guy drives to Colorado every couple weeks and stocks up so he knows what strain he gets. But I’m lucky.
Is it keeping the camels at bay?
I ask because I did once attempt to find a psychiatrist because I was pressured into it but he was fucking with me and playing mind games so I stopped trying to schedule an appointment. It seems to me like finding a counselor is like trying to get into Fight Club or something.
I specifically did not go to a psychiatrist because they’re the ones with medical doctorates that can prescribe medications, and that’s usually where they start. I wanted to see someone that didn’t have the ability to write a prescription so they’d be forced to actually talk to me and hear me out for a length of time, and if they thought i was in need of medication, then I could switch over to a psychiatrist for that.
Mine may not have been a psychiatrist, actually. I just call them all psychiatrists.
The Person in Question
I could be wrong, but I believe that technically, a psychiatrist is capable of prescribing medication, and a psychologist is a therapist.
“What Orwell feared were those who would ban books. What Huxley feared was that there would be no reason to ban a book, for there would be no one who wanted to read one.”
Neil Postman, Amusing Ourselves to Death
You’re right.
The Person in Question
Ugh. I’m about 40 pounds heavier than I should be and I know that eating less and exercising more is the key. Every night I think to myself “Tomorrow is the day that I eat a healthy amount of food and go for a run”. This never happens! I get about halfway through the day just fine, then walk over to the pantry and stuff myself with pop tarts till I hate myself. Has anybody discovered the secrets?
All of this compounded on top of my sexuality presenting itself to me recently. I’m very conflicted on that front, too.
EDIT: Hope everything gets better Ash. You too Handman.
Good luck, Ash.
Today I thought to myself, if my life hasn’t improved in a year, I’ll probably just off myself finally. Life has been pretty empty.
Yeah. But damn man. You don’t realize how much I like your vibe. I’d miss you for sure. You don’t realize how much you contribute to the stable background of this place. I rely on all of you guys to be here. You know?
So don’t go getting all drastic and stuff. I’m on an edge of my own so I get it? But I’m still trying to get over the last pal I was writing to who decided to take a shortcut.
I still wish I’d done more to make things clear to him. I still wish I’d explained it all better. I wish I’d told him I cared a hell of a lot more than I let on.
But nah. I was too cool for all that.
(But I mean I sure felt that twice when I had to explain to his dad what all happened)
So no. Don’t think too empty and dark. You mean something to people you’ve never even met. It’s a truth.
K. Let’s have this ride.
Ugh. I’m about 40 pounds heavier than I should be and I know that eating less and exercising more is the key. Every night I think to myself “Tomorrow is the day that I eat a healthy amount of food and go for a run”. This never happens! I get about halfway through the day just fine, then walk over to the pantry and stuff myself with pop tarts till I hate myself. Has anybody discovered the secrets?
All of this compounded on top of my sexuality presenting itself to me recently. I’m very conflicted on that front, too.
EDIT: Hope everything gets better Ash. You too Handman.
Honestly? Don’t buy Pop Tarts. I’ve reduced my snacking simply by replacing a lot of the carby/sugary snack food in my cupboard with fruit. I can easily walk through the store without buying Oreos. But if they’re open and in my cupboard, they’re not lasting long.
I finished a 40-lb weight loss about a year ago. I just committed to exercising every day after work and made myself go even if I didn’t feel like it. It quickly became habit. Also severely restricted my calorie intake using a counting app.
Now I eat as I used to, except for the new snacking habits, and subbing a meal or two a week with salad, and get to the gym about 3 times a week for intense cardio, and I’ve managed to keep it off.
I would put this in my sig if I weren’t so lazy.
Ugh. I’m about 40 pounds heavier than I should be and I know that eating less and exercising more is the key. Every night I think to myself “Tomorrow is the day that I eat a healthy amount of food and go for a run”. This never happens! I get about halfway through the day just fine, then walk over to the pantry and stuff myself with pop tarts till I hate myself. Has anybody discovered the secrets?
All of this compounded on top of my sexuality presenting itself to me recently. I’m very conflicted on that front, too.
The seasons have an impact on me. With summer coming, I expect to have more desire to be active along with the pressure of seeing others running around in great shape.
For me, a motivator is a desire to see results. If I run on the treadmill with all the discomfort it entails, that motivates me to eat better/less so as to not squander all that effort and to see results quicker. But there needs to be a balance. If you’re just killing yourself at the gym or starving yourself, it won’t last long. Intermittent fasting can be good, which doesn’t mean starving yourself all day long. I’ve done that and it’s not worth it.
Another tactic is having others to share the efforts with. I’ve known guys/girls who had results with weight watchers or had workout partners. Having some way to recognize your efforts goes a long way to helping you maintain them. Having a definite goal and tracking it can help.
I’m in a similar boat, as I went to the gym today and resolved to really change my habits. And then I failed tonight with my eating.
About 2 years ago, I ran almost everyday and didn’t eat from 8pm until lunch, and I felt great and had more energy. Once you get into a new routine it gets easier. I think they say 17 days is what it takes to form a new habit. I had goals and reasons and that was what kept me going. I’m gearing up to get back to that again.
Also: don’t beat yourself up when you do indulge or miss a day of exercise. Let it be a blip on the radar. And like CHEWBAKA said, stick to it even when you don’t want to.
The blue elephant in the room.
Thank you! 😃
Throwing in a recommendation for calorie counting and intermittent fasting, which is what mrebo was talking about with the “not eating between 8pm and lunch” bit. I’m currently doing much the same - I eat between noon and 8pm, and outside of those hours I consume no calories (though I make an exception for alcohol some nights).
Man I miss drinking. Having something to look forward to, having a barrier between me and the world, protected from things that hurt. Being able to ignore my inner feelings and just be okay for a few hours instead of being constantly depressed with no respite like now. I still have pot but despite the stereotypes doesn’t really offer the same emotional distance or apathy. If anything for me it makes me feel everything more intensely, which can be a double edged sword. It helps deal with some issues by making me confront them which is nice, and also of course makes fun activities more fun, but man are the down times rough. I’m way off track now, but I really miss the numbness of drinking. And I really miss my girlfriend. It’s highly possible we’ll be able to get back together again in the future (Its a very unique and specific circumstance I don’t want to get into on here), and I really hope so because God do I love her, but I also don’t really want to believe we will just because it’s unhealthy to live that way and will only make it harder if we don’t. I wish I could just have a drink and not think about it for a while. Instead I have a smoke and got fixated on thinking about it. But now I do feel somewhat better and feel like doing something more fun and it’s not making me sick, so I guess it’s got that going for it over alcohol.
I know what you mean man. Truly.
My last relationship nose-dived just when I needed it most. (Probably because I needed it most, but whatever)
Hope you get back with your girl as soon as. Keep on the side of hope with that. At least you’ve got that window
K. Let’s have this ride.
Oh fuck I might be trans! Fuck!
I might not be though. I might be in denial. Help!
I know that if I come out my friends and family would be supportive, but I’m irrationally scared to do it!
Also, I don’t know about the political opinions of everyone here. I do my fan-edit stuff because I crave attention and I’m scared that that attention will go away!
Edit: in case anybody is reading this, I now realise I’m not actually trans. I was just confused when I wrote this. 👍
Edit 2: ha look at all that denial in edit 1
Everyone in this thread is very supportive, and everyone else tends to at least be smart enough to keep their mouths shut. So you’ll get nothing but love from us!
I’m confused about that last part, about fan edits.
The blue elephant in the room.
I’m confused about that last part, about fan edits.
In the fan-edit part of the website I work on edits of some of the Star Wars movies. My main motivation for editing is attention from other living breathing humans.
I know several trans people at various stages of transitioning, but I’m not super close with any of them so I can’t really offer any advice to you on that front other than to say that you’ve got my support!
What I will say is, figuring yourself out isn’t easy, so don’t rush into anything. Take some time to examine your thoughts and process your emotions about it. I wouldn’t come out to everyone until you’re more certain about things, but if you have someone close to you that you can talk to in order to help you through the “figuring shit out” part, that could be valuable.
I’m confused about that last part, about fan edits.
In the fan-edit part of the website I work on edits of some of the Star Wars movies. My main motivation for editing is attention from other living breathing humans.
I hope you genuinely enjoy it. I don’t see what it has to do with any gender confusion. The people here seem generally willing to treat each other’s personal challenges with respect.
Some people here have lousy political views but your Star Wars enthusiasm and personal characteristics are other matters entirely.
The blue elephant in the room.
I’m confused about that last part, about fan edits.
In the fan-edit part of the website I work on edits of some of the Star Wars movies. My main motivation for editing is attention from other living breathing humans.
I hope you genuinely enjoy it. I don’t see what it has to do with any gender confusion. The people here seem generally willing to treat each other’s personal challenges with respect.
Some people here have lousy political views but your Star Wars enthusiasm and personal characteristics are other matters entirely.
I do genuinely enjoy it, but the attention is a big part of my motivation to continue.
I was just thinking of the whole ‘separating artists from their art’ thing. Sort of like how Tarantino’s an asshole but his movies are masterpieces. I was just thinking that most people hate trans folk. I hope I’m wrong.
Anyways, thank you all for the support! 😃
I’m confused about that last part, about fan edits.
In the fan-edit part of the website I work on edits of some of the Star Wars movies. My main motivation for editing is attention from other living breathing humans.
I hope you genuinely enjoy it. I don’t see what it has to do with any gender confusion. The people here seem generally willing to treat each other’s personal challenges with respect.
Some people here have lousy political views but your Star Wars enthusiasm and personal characteristics are other matters entirely.
I do genuinely enjoy it, but the attention is a big part of my motivation to continue.
I was just thinking of the whole ‘separating artists from their art’ thing. Sort of like how Tarantino’s an asshole but his movies are masterpieces. I was just thinking that most people hate trans folk. I hope I’m wrong.
Anyways, thank you all for the support! 😃
Fanedits is one area where I’m smart enough to keep my mouth shut 😉
Many don’t understand or agree but as far as I’ve seen most people don’t hate. You can’t control what you’re judged for nor live to please others. Take it easy 😃
The blue elephant in the room.
You have my support.