The Place to Go for Emotional Support — Page 95

My close friends know but there’s nothing anybody can do to help. You guys can relax though I would never kill myself after telling everybody or especially anybody that I wanted to. I mean it and I do want to and sometimes wish I had a way and sometimes have to vent it, but if I were to do it I would do it silently and unexpectedly. For the simple reason that otherwise whoever I was talking to would blame themselves or feel guilty for not being able to stop me and I would never want anyone to feel like it’s their fault or that they didn’t do enough.

Mrebo said:

Even though the past can’t be fixed, what about a therapist to help you?

this. I understand you don’t want to tell us your problem(s). That is fine and your business. But sounds like you need to tell someone and get help. Please think about.

Well it’s not so much that I feel it’s “my business” and that I shouldn’t share it with you guys, I’m really just exhausted from talking about it with people in my personal life. (Usually without the suicidal overtones, but last nights episode was a bit of an exception. When it first happened I felt that way every day when it first happened, but while I’m still usually massively depressed I don’t usually go on and on about killing myself like i did several months ago and nights like that get fewer. So I guess that’s at least good even though I’m still not okay)

It’ll be okay I just get like that sometimes.

Well, I hope things get better for you.

Thank you.

Hi folks. It’s been a difficult time. I moved into just in time to be snowed in. (up to my knee) So nobody would deliver the items of furniture I needed or come to assist me fix items to walls which seriously slowed down my progress unboxing. All the while my mental health has been in flux and my work has suffered for it. A co-worker I’ve grown quite fond of is leaving and blurrrrrrrrgh! So I’ve not visited for a while. I thought I’d pop in to say hello.

Hello! 😄

The flat is now a home with only a few boxes tucked away upstairs which I will work on at my leisure.

I need to find another job as I’m finding my current one unworkable because of the distance, the hours and the fact I have to commute back to a place I associate with a lot of upset.

My tics have at times been very bad and the wonders of anxiety attacks and general anxiety have raised their heads again after a rather long pause.

Moving has been very expensive. I have almost completely wiped out my savings so add financial worries to the mix and stir but this place is amazing.

It is the most amazing flat anyone has ever lived in…ever. And I live here and I’m not being shouted at, not being ‘sent to my room’. I don’t have to suffer conspiracy theory videos 24/7 I can have booze in the house and not worry about it vanishing overnight. I can have friends and neighbour pass my threshold.

So it’s not all bad.

In fact today I’m feeling a bit optimistic. It will pass but enjoying it while it lasts 😄

I echo the sentiments above, glad things are looking good!

Glad things are mostly well. Sortof. Hope you can find a new job soon to ease the commute and the emotional upset that goes with your current one. I know the feeling of wanting to leave a good job I otherwise like because of negative emotional association.

Sounds like things are headed in the right direction for you, Bingo. I’m glad to hear it. Such drastic change, even if it’s overall a positive change, can still be stressful, but it’ll get better once it starts to become more normal.

Happy to see you around here again, man!

Been having a dramatic increase in anxiety and insomnia for the past few days that doesn’t seem to have a source or want to respond much to attempts at mitigation. Very much at a loss as to what to do about it. Might look into going back to my therapist if it doesn’t improve by the end of the week.

ChainsawAsh said:

Been having a dramatic increase in anxiety and insomnia for the past few days that doesn’t seem to have a source or want to respond much to attempts at mitigation. Very much at a loss as to what to do about it. Might look into going back to my therapist if it doesn’t improve by the end of the week.

I don’t know whatelse to say other than I hope things get better for you Ash, and we’ll be here if you need us. Have a good evening friend.

ChainsawAsh said:

Been having a dramatic increase in anxiety and insomnia for the past few days that doesn’t seem to have a source or want to respond much to attempts at mitigation. Very much at a loss as to what to do about it. Might look into going back to my therapist if it doesn’t improve by the end of the week.

Forgive me for being silly, just this once, but you do still smoke weed yes? Might you have gotten hold of a strain that doesn’t agree with you? It’s happened to me before. If you find yourself to wound up and anxious and unable to relax maybe you need something more indica dominant? I’m a regular user and I’ve found heavy sativas make me feel exactly how you just described.

Possessed said:

ChainsawAsh said:

Been having a dramatic increase in anxiety and insomnia for the past few days that doesn’t seem to have a source or want to respond much to attempts at mitigation. Very much at a loss as to what to do about it. Might look into going back to my therapist if it doesn’t improve by the end of the week.

Forgive me for being silly, just this once, but you do still smoke weed yes? Might you have gotten hold of a strain that doesn’t agree with you? It’s happened to me before. If you find yourself to wound up and anxious and unable to relax maybe you need something more indica dominant? I’m a regular user and I’ve found heavy sativas make me feel exactly how you just described.

Actually, I haven’t had weed of my own in over a month, and have only very infrequently smoked during that time. I’m actually trying to get a hold of some for after work tonight in the hopes that it’ll help.

moviefreakedmind said:

Sorry to hear it. If you don’t mind me asking, how exactly to you go about “going back” to a therapist?

Good question, really. I’ll need to get my old therapist’s number from somewhere, give her a call, and see if she’s got room on her schedule for me to start coming back in.

Hopefully her rate hasn’t gone up…

Collipso said:

ChainsawAsh said:

Been having a dramatic increase in anxiety and insomnia for the past few days that doesn’t seem to have a source or want to respond much to attempts at mitigation. Very much at a loss as to what to do about it. Might look into going back to my therapist if it doesn’t improve by the end of the week.

I don’t know whatelse to say other than I hope things get better for you Ash, and we’ll be here if you need us. Have a good evening friend.

Thanks man, I appreciate it.

Good luck, Ash.

Today I thought to myself, if my life hasn’t improved in a year, I’ll probably just off myself finally. Life has been pretty empty.

ChainsawAsh said:

Possessed said:

ChainsawAsh said:

Been having a dramatic increase in anxiety and insomnia for the past few days that doesn’t seem to have a source or want to respond much to attempts at mitigation. Very much at a loss as to what to do about it. Might look into going back to my therapist if it doesn’t improve by the end of the week.

Forgive me for being silly, just this once, but you do still smoke weed yes? Might you have gotten hold of a strain that doesn’t agree with you? It’s happened to me before. If you find yourself to wound up and anxious and unable to relax maybe you need something more indica dominant? I’m a regular user and I’ve found heavy sativas make me feel exactly how you just described.

Actually, I haven’t had weed of my own in over a month, and have only very infrequently smoked during that time. I’m actually trying to get a hold of some for after work tonight in the hopes that it’ll help.

If that’s the case, you should listen to Possessed. Indica would be much better than sativa in your case imo too, but I’m sure you already know it.

Handman said:

Good luck, Ash.

Today I thought to myself, if my life hasn’t improved in a year, I’ll probably just off myself finally. Life has been pretty empty.

Not entirely sure about what this means, but I like you and things might still start to improve. I hope you find things to fill the emptiness in your life. Try not to give up just yet.

Collipso said:

ChainsawAsh said:

Possessed said:

ChainsawAsh said:

Been having a dramatic increase in anxiety and insomnia for the past few days that doesn’t seem to have a source or want to respond much to attempts at mitigation. Very much at a loss as to what to do about it. Might look into going back to my therapist if it doesn’t improve by the end of the week.

Forgive me for being silly, just this once, but you do still smoke weed yes? Might you have gotten hold of a strain that doesn’t agree with you? It’s happened to me before. If you find yourself to wound up and anxious and unable to relax maybe you need something more indica dominant? I’m a regular user and I’ve found heavy sativas make me feel exactly how you just described.

Actually, I haven’t had weed of my own in over a month, and have only very infrequently smoked during that time. I’m actually trying to get a hold of some for after work tonight in the hopes that it’ll help.

If that’s the case, you should listen to Possessed. Indica would be much better than sativa in your case imo too, but I’m sure you already know it.

Don’t listen to him. Listening to me is always a dangerous game and deep down you know it.

Good luck man.