It’s shocking how all of my friends seem to care so little about me. I don’t know. I feel empty and alone.
For what it’s worth and I appreciate it’s not the same, but we are here. When you aren’t well it’s like looking into bathwater with baby oil on the surface. The whole view is distorted. Things that seem so insignificant when you are well are magnified and the truly important things are obscured and hard to make out. If your friends don’t notice your discomfort you might need to tell them about it as it might feel obvious to you but be utterly invisible to them. If after that they don’t care, well what sort of friends are they? Make new ones if you can but if it’s currently too exhausting, vent your woes elsewhere while whatever you need to do to get a purchase on the problem is kicking in. Life is short, stand as tall as you can and the best people will notice your courage.