Sorry to worry you folks.
I’m down visiting friends and family down south and while I have had some bleak moments (particularly activated someone I have begun to be rather stupidly keen on seems to be actively ignoring me for reasons yet to be known) and my tics have become almost comically uncontrollable, I had a small triumph in that a very nice (possibly too young man) got very keen on me the other night. It was kind of mystifying but nice while it lasted. It didn’t go beyond kissing but it showed me that someone likes what I have to offer and that’s a step in the right direction even if he will be hundreds of miles away. As Cole Porter put it : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Nxgc3zb7VE
Still dreading my return both to home and work. The support group I’ve been consulting seem to be not answering email either and now I have this added worry about if work is going to be made uncomfortable by uncomfortable silences. But for the time being mostly better than okay.