Can’t just quit. Could be deadly. Can’t afford to go through medical detox again. For a while anyway. I’ve tried to taper off but every time I start to make progress something happens in my life and I feel like my nerves are going to go crazy if I don’t resume normal drinking (which is something I would just deal with if I weren’t worried that intense nerves + alcohol withdrawal might bring my vitals to the edge of danger) so every time I make progress it goes down the toilet. I suppose I could just keep trying to taper, and even if it doesn’t work the reduced drinking for the limited time will at least give my body a little rest.