Parts of this may sound weird but I have to talk about this somewhere. For the past week I’ve become infatuated with a girl I discovered on YouTube. She’s part of a web series. So as you can guess I don’t know her and she doesn’t know me and also we live in different States.

To say this is a celebrity crush is an understatement. I just feel this weird spark whenever I watch her videos and no this has never really happened to me like this before. I mean look I had a crush on Daisy Ridley after seeing TFA for the first time but I wasn’t thinking about her everyday extensively for the next week. Also I’m 24 so I’m not some youngster experiencing hormones for the first time.

This girl does vlogging about movies and other stuff that I feel I relate to. Movies, depression, internet bullies. However she has an extremely positive vibe which I admit is almost like a breath of fresh air for someone like me who’s dealt with depression for quite a few years now.

It’s strange. I would give anything to meet and chat with this girl or at least find an appropriate way to get her attention. I just don’t see how that can happen. She’s accumulated a good number of followers the last few years so I have as much a chance of becoming close friends with her than the first hobo I run into on the street.

I don’t expect anyone here to give proper advice on this problem but I wanted to mention it somewhere. If people here wanna laugh and make fun of me due to this go ahead. With the way i feel right now I don’t really care. Also before anyone asks no, in spite of her not knowing or having spoken to me, I will not reveal her name or further details on on what she does out of respect to her privacy and to a lesser extent my own, at least not in this thread.