Thanks everyone for being so nice and trying to help me. I’m currently in a situation that would make seeking professional help impossible, so you guys and a handful of real-world friends are all I’ve got. I don’t deserve any of you. Thank you.
EDIT: Husezni, if you have advice, even if it’s contrary to everyone else’s, you’re welcome to share it. I didn’t make my post to start debates among people trying to help me, no matter how wrong you think they are. So if you have ideas for solutions to my problem, tell me, because arguing with Ender, or anyone else, is pointless for all involved.
I just find CLARITY where there was muddle to be supportive and comforting.
The Powers That Be have spent many centuries deliberately creating muddle confusion and error where it should be simple.
Underneath it all, people KNOW.
Everyone with at least three functioning brain cells comes equipped with the ability to readily recognize Truth and the right Way. TPTB try mightily to interfere and prevent realization. Above all, they try to create characters who try to substitute their own sick nonsense and as much as half-believe that it is truth.
I would urge anyone to develop the habit of carefully examining questions with great skepticism for any position the enlightened people insist must be accepted as their own Moral Narcissist gospel. If they tell us the sky is blue, we should all walk outside and gaze upwards carefully considering for some time.