Sorry to hear that, Mike. I wish I could give you some good advice, but this is out of my area of expertise. Maybe you should talk to your Dad’s doctor again, maybe your medications need adjusting. Have you seen the psychiatrist yet? If so, tell him that you feel you are backsliding. If not, maybe it is time to me with him. Keep in mind this is coming from someone that has little knowledge of what he is talking about. I hope and pray you get better.
I’m trying to see my dad’s doctor, but he’s hard to get a hold of. He’s only contactable by Dad or phone and has a secretary and no answering machine. My father pointed out that I should probably look into getting a new one who’s educational minds more with the age of computers, and with whom I’m a little bit more compatible. Oh, and my dad has hernia surgery tomorrow, my brother’s girlfriend’s father is in stage one of pancreatic cancer, and is going to start chemotherapy on St. Patrick’s Day. I had a breakdown in front of my crucifix yesterday and started sobbing. And I came home from work to that wasn’t too bad, only to indulge in considerable compulsions, and the associated inexplicable guilt, anger, anxiety, depression, and circular obsessiveness that I cannot control.