I’ll probably calm down and back off the booze soon anyway. I’ve gone back and forth a few times anyway.
That doesn’t need to cost anything.
It would be dangerous for you to immediately give up but keeping a record of your consumption and carefully reducing the trend of consumption (you will have bad days where you will drink more but if you can get the direction to point away from drinking you will make progress).
Some people don’t like AA, some of it’s methods are a bit cultish to be honest but it can be a good way of getting support from other people.
Most areas have something like a buddying system for people in recovery to monitor each other as for some people a group is not good fit.
As I said before no two people are identicle but resigning yourself to being soon dead is unfair on the guy you may be in the future. If being dead was a goal in life I doubt you would bother to tell people about it much. You sound more like you want to live without the reliance on the liquid holiday a glass can give.
Am I wrong?