TOO LATE!!

Leonardo said:

TOO LATE!!

Yes, get on with it!

By way of gentle persuasion I thought I'd mention my main domestic quest of the day.

The Chateau has a bay window and we use it to display various nik-naks.

Over Christmas I was given a few more bits of t..interest and in trying to find a spot for them I noticed that the window area needed a bit of a clean.

Today I took all the objects out of the window took down the blinds and washed them in the bath and scrubbed the window frame and the bay with bleach and water.

This is right behind where the better half sits and he isn't there all day, he does go to work and it's been about a year since I gave the area such a deep clean.

The bath water was orange.

And after cleaning the blinds and the window frame it looks like we have had decorators in.

The window is white not tangerine.

If that is one year's part time smoke imagine what the inside of a lung in such a situation is going to be like?

Hope that helps.

Appreciate it. One thing I can say in defence of my two/three cigs a day (for now) is that the first one cures my morning sniffles.
Before you say "well what caused the sniffles?" it's my bedroom that's damp. There seems to be no other explanation, the wall I face when I sleep has mold on it. We've tried getting rid of it, but it always comes back. It's an outside wall and it's probably due to water leaking into it.
The building is not exactly new (something like 26 years I think) so it's currently going under renovation. I have scaffoldings outside of my window so I can't even open it to ventilate the room.
So, stuffy, damp, I live in it, good thing I don't smoke in it...

I've gone slightly off topic, haven't I? 

Leonardo said:

I've gone slightly off topic, haven't I? 

Yes, you need to go further.

alright, I'll go forth and have another cigarette!

Merry Christmas!

Leonardo said:

alright, I'll go forth and have another cigarette!

No, that's not...*sigh*

TV's Frink said:

Leonardo said:

alright, I'll go forth and have another cigarette!

No, that's not...*sigh*

Hey Warb!! C'mere a minute! He's stealing your act!

Mold and cigarette smoke? Your lungs must look lovely!

I'm starting to seriously consider getting a medical marijuana card. I've been really depressed lately, and for some reason smoking tends to motivate me - in other words, everything feels less hopeless and I remember I have a semblance of direction in my life. The only reservation I have is that I want to go into the field of education, which is technically a government job. Also, I might abuse it. I'd like to think I'm smart enough not to, but that's what I (falsely) said about alcohol.

I don't know why I'm sharing this here. Huh.

Have you sampled the positive effect of negative ions?

The Eye Of Orion is good this time year, just the spot to shake up that Artronic Chakra. 

Again, what's really weird is I think I very easily could end up a little dependent on it. But, really though - I feel motivated in a way I don't without it. It's tough to explain without giving a huge overview of my life, but I'm very much a product of my generation and the whole "instant gratification" thing. A lot of times, seriously applying myself scares me because I'm not sure if it will truly pay off in my future. Marijuana tends to alleviate these feelings for awhile and I end up with not only more energy (after I've "come down") but also much more confidence in myself. Suddenly, other people don't seem so scary and I don't mind reaching out even if I'm not sure it will mean anything the day after.

I've thought about getting one for recreational purposes before but I never really took it seriously like this, so my thought process is a little bit more calculated than in that situation.

I remember why I posted this: outside and objective perspective. Thanks, TheBoost.

TheBoost said:

bkev said:

I'm starting to seriously consider getting a medical marijuana card. I've been really depressed lately, and for some reason smoking tends to motivate me - in other words, everything feels less hopeless and I remember I have a semblance of direction in my life. The only reservation I have is that I want to go into the field of education, which is technically a government job. Also, I might abuse it. I'd like to think I'm smart enough not to, but that's what I (falsely) said about alcohol.

Marijuana is generally not the best choice, as it tends to increase depression. Starting a depressant that you might likely abuse might be a bad choice.

If you're willing to get a card a go through a dispensary, perhaps you might be better off with something that treats depression.

It depends, some doctors perscribe marijuana as an anti-depressant. This is what a school doctor perscribed to a friend of mine and it was fairly effective. A friend of mine self-medicates this way as well because she says it helps clear her mind and not focus on negative things. Like any medication for psychological issues, it's always case by case. To cure depression you usually have to try more than one drug until you find one right for you.

At the risk of stating the obvious there is a difference between clinical depression and feeling miserable.

If you have been diagnosed by a qualified doctor as being clinically depressed get someone who hasn't to walk you through the options.

If you are feeling miserable it's possibly for a reason that you can take direct action to resolve without flipping your brain chemistry around with pills and herbs.

The "happy thing" is over-rated and over sold.

To truly appreciate what should be rare moments of joy it's natural to feel unhappy for periods and rather indifferent for longer stretches.

People in a state of perpetual glee are A) insufferable to say the least and B) almost certainly insane.

If you are under a perpetual debilitating cloud which arrived without reason and refuses to lift even when it makes sense that it should, that is when you might need a mood stabiliser.

Perpetuity is the key. If your mood will not budge up or down regardless of what is happening to you, you probably have a problem of some kind.

But as I say get a Doctor or three to look into it but I wasn't fibbing about the negative ions.

They can work wonders.

I'm cigarette-free since March 1st!

Chilled Poultry?

come again?

Are you just giving up unaided?

Oh, cold turkey. Of course. Heh... I'm kinda slow tonight.

Yeah, of course, I'm not at such a point where I should need help of any kind, I don't think. A pack and a half a week is a vice, but it's no ball and chain. To me at least.

I just wanna see if I can last a month, like I did in November, and then see if I can keep it up, and for how long. I challenge myself that way.

Congrats Leonardo! Hope it works out for you.

Meanwhile, I've chosen to pick my poisons from here on out. I'm not drinking anymore, but I tend to smoke when I have greens available. Opted not to get a card after all, just because I didn't want it interfering with my life in the future.

Thanks! I know it will.

Oh, don't mention alcohol. I've been dying for a drink lately, it's been a while since my last one, and even that was a mere couple of beers. I hope to booze it up properly next saturday.